The word you seek, the weird one, the one you never use?
You know the one. It describes the thing. That does that… thing.
Well, you cannot have it.
The just-the-right-color orange wool sweater with the oversized cable pattern that some yahoo stole out of the classroom five minutes after you forgot you left it under your chair twenty-five years ago?
Dumb gal stuffed it in her bag the minute you walked away? Yeah, you cannot have that sweater.
A song you heard once on the radio that far back summer?
The song whose name you never knew?
You know— that tune that haunts your dishwashing hours in snatches and bits and threads?
You cannot have it. Not right now.
(In the deep blue hour of two a.m, when you roll awake from a good, dead sleep— BAM!— there’s the whole song. Want it now?)
If you are tall, you cannot be short.
If you are short, you cannot become tall.
I am sorry, but you cannot have it.
No matter how hard you squish up your face and wish, you will never spontaneous molt all of your brown hair one night and turn white water rapids blonde.
Nope. Cannot ever have it.
An invisible jet with custom oxblood leather upholstery and a magical homemade soup making machine?
Wonder Woman has it already.
You! Cannot! Have! It!
The minutes tumble from your arms like a dropped load of books in a wild wind.
As much as you struggle and as much as you stride to grab for each volume, you will not snatch them minutes back, my darlin’.
You’re not getting this second back either. Or this one. Zip! There it goes!
Whoops. There goes another one! Grab that second over there—
Oh wait, that’s right! You cannot have it.
Today’s lotto numbers: The square root of five divided by the negative number of two even slices of onion equals— you cannot have it.
That suit that made your shoulders look broad and your waist fighting trim? The cleaners destroyed it. You cannot have it. Do you want a cookie?
Here’s what you have:
You have this page in front of you, glowing.
You have this moment.
You have you— and you are a lot of you.
Here’s what I can give you:
I can give you my good wishes.
I can give you a smile. (You can take that with you for the rest of the day!)
I can give you a reminder that good things are coming your way all the time.
And I can give you this, right here—
You have my sincere attention.
Yeah, you can have that. You have it right now.